Reach Out for Help

Please note: This story discusses suicide and suicidal thoughts

Oct 13, 2019, a wonderful evening turned into a nightmare. My life changed forever. My husband, my best friend, my confidant, my everything for 25 years, made the ultimate sacrifice and pointed a gun at his head, said "I don't want to do this anymore", then pulled the trigger to end his life. It was/is a devastating experience that I wish upon no one, ever. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. So many questions unanswered. Why did he feel so alone? Why did he feel like he couldn't talk to me, or anyone? Why did he feel like ending his life would be the best decision? We were best friends, did everything together. Had 2 daughters and a granddaughter together. I will never know or understand why he made the decision he did. I urge you, or anyone you know, to speak to someone, anyone, if you are having suicidal ideations. The pain may be severed for the victim, but it never goes away for those still alive.