Forever Changed: Remembering My Brother

Please note: This story discusses suicide and suicidal thoughts.

I have had a really hard life and had contemplated suicide many times when I was young. I had children young and I decided to live for them. However, in 2010 my older brother who was only 34 years old at the time committed suicide. It was the worst heartbreak that I have ever felt. The people that loved hm were deviated and our lives will never be the same. We will always miss him and think of all of the things that he has missed out on. He has missed his kids growing up and becoming parents, and he will never know those precious grandbabies. Because I now know what it is like for a family to lose someone in such a sad way, I am forever changed and I have an understanding of how much everyone is loved, even if they don't think so.