Still Figuring It Out, Still Trying

I am someone who cares deeply. I care about family and friends. I care about little thing that other people might overlook-the pictures someone sends me, a new baby joining the family, a message from a friend I haven't talked to in a while. Even when I don't always have the energy to reach out, the people I love don't stop mattering to me. Sometimes life gets heavy, and there are moments when I pull back, get quiet, or find myself in a s1ump. Maybe I don't always know exactly how to explain what I am feeling, I know when someone matters to me. And when I realize I been distant, want to make it right. I wear my heart on my sleeve. I am also a problem solver, when something doesn't work, I don't immediately throw it away. I ask questions, I try another outlet. I check the settings, I look for buttons, a tike picture and say "what is this"? or how to fix it? I want answers that make sense to me. I also have a creative side. I like making ordinary things special. A Bottle can become a Christmas decoration. A banner can become a celebration. A picture can become something completely different. I like seeing possibilities in things and asking, "what else could I do with this? I also think about the future a lot. I am always thinking about my money, investing, taxes and what happens when things don't go exactly the way I expected. I want to understand what I am dealing with so I can make informed decisions rather than simply hoping everything works out. I also care about my health, and I ask question here too. I do not like wondering about something, I want to know what it means, what my options are and what I should do next. Sometimes the unknown is scary, but asking questions is one of the ways I can take back a little bit of control. Basically, my story is about not having everything figured out but I keep on trying even when I am happy or overwhelmed.