Going through grief

I've never seen myself as a person who would regularly see a therapist. We unexpectedly lost my father to a heart attack in 2022. I was now a daughter who didn't have a father. How do I navigate this new life without me mentally breaking down. I didn't know who I was anymore. I utilized our caregiver benefits and found a Lyra therapist. I needed to find the old-me. It's been over a year since starting therapy and what I learned is that there's nothing to "fix" about myself. I'm not broken. I realized that not only was I grieving the loss of my father, but I was also grieving the old version of me. There's no therapy that can bring her back. I will never be the same person I was back in 2022. That version of me had a dad and I don't have that anymore. This is my new normal. My life hasn't gotten worse - it's just different. Therapy has helped me be okay with the uncomfortable but not have it control my life. If you're grieving, allow yourself to feel. Allow yourself to cry, scream, and be patient with your healing. It doesn’t ever stop hurting. You don’t stop missing them - but eventually the dark days do get a little bit lighter day by day. Hang in there